Please before you flame me for not replying to PM's, read this.
So, this has been definitely the hardest year of my life.
Everything started on August 24 2016. I was up all night that day, waiting for the results. I was with a friend, we were on Skype and we were playing some games on steam so we could relieve some of the stress. At about 10PM, (we were still up), the webpage that the results would be announced, was up online. My friend logs in with his details to see in which university he got in. He actually made it to the one of his choice. Ok, i said, i have to check mine now. So, i log in with my details and i see nothing in there. I asked my friend "There's nothing in here, is there something wrong?" then he replied "Fuck". I was so doomed that moment, my mind has just blacked out that moment. I just couldn't think of anything, i couldn't hear anything or anyone. My mom called me, asked me if everything's fine - i didn't even know she called me that time. It was the second time i failed my final exams and the chance of getting into the university of my choice.
September 28, 2016. All of my friends had moved to their town they succeeded in, to start their life in unis/colleges. I was the only one left out, alone. I was so sad that moment, nobody said a word to me, none. They didn't even call me to encourage me for something else. September ended, so i had to do something, i had to figure what to do with my life. I was searching online for jobs, i was searching online for forums, Reddit, etc, something to express myself and get some replies that would relieve some stress. Then i thought i was a part of nulled. I was registered here since 2015 but i was none, i was leeching the fuck out everything.
When November was about to end, i thought if trying to get the exams for one last, third time. So, i sat my ass down, i gathered all the books and papers i needed around me in order and i started revising all the subjects. I also had my playlist on YouTube from 2015 which helped me study better. Same time, i was also visiting Nulled regularly. My daily routine was wake up, coffee, Nulled shoutbox, doing some research on account cracking, study for 5-6 hours, eat, take a shit and back to bed. This was happening until December 25. This Christmas and new years eve, i will never forget. I was completely alone, i saw every god damn friend of mine post on Facebook about how they were hanging out, having a great time, etc. That was the final shot to me, i fell into depression. I had 10 days in my room, lying on my bed all day, thinking how i fucked up my life so bad. About 10 days later, i woke up, made some coffee and i went straight for Nulled shoutbox. 2017 had come and i needed to do something this year to fix everything. So, i set a strict daily routine. I took a sheet of paper and i wrote down everything i would do every single day until 7 June, when the exams would start again. My routine was eat - 6 hours at least study hard - take a shit - sleep and the free time whatever i wanted to do. Since i didn't want to go out because i thought everyone would think i was a disappointment, i mostly stayed inside and followed my routine.
This happened everyday until the day of exams, i was studying every single day and i was also here on Nulled with some awesome guys. I had learned to crack accounts and make some little money selling the inactive accounts. Wow i said, i'm a criminal now, but in the other side, most combos i had were from porn sites databases and the accounts i was selling were inactive so i also thought, nobody's gonna miss them. I was also spending a lot of my free time doing some shit if Photoshop. At least i was not depressed at that time and i had a goal once again in my miserable life.
June 7, 2017. Day of doom - i thought. It was the big time, i had to prove myself i could make it. So, i went straight for it. That 2 weeks when the exams were taking place, i was studying all day. Sleep and study was my routine. I also had my braces at that time and things were pretty damn hard. I was on painkillers all day, but the pain was sweet, since my teeth and bite was crooked as fuck. On June 24 (i think) my exams had ended. Now, i had some more stuff to take care of once again, such as make all the papers again to apply for the uni. I set a high goal and i had to make some papers to apply for the navy and i also had some other universities such as economics and programming that i could also attend if wouldn't make it to the one of my choice. Until August 24, it was a rough summer for me. I was helping my father with his work, and i also helped my parents with chores. I was actually trying my best to help them as much as i could. I also had to go on vacation since i live in Greece and you cant stay home with 45 degrees outside. It was the worst vacations i ever had, with all the stress i had for the results, since i had scored about the same as the previous year, but this year the subjects were a lot tougher so i was really close.
August 24, 2017. I woke up around 9:30PM. Father called me, asking if the results were announced, i replied no, not yet. For 30 mins straight, i had my laptop on my lap, spamming the refresh button on the governments site for the results. At around 10:03 PM, the site was up. I said fuck it, i wont log in, i will just download the .xls file to see all the universities and the least amount of points you needed to get into them. So, i download the file and i tried to open it but i didn't have office in my laptop at that time. Oh fuck, this didn't start good i said. I then found a site online to view the file. So i went and did that. I then searched for the uni i wanted. I was scrolling down and then i saw it. I saw the max amount of points the first guy had and it was around 19k. Oh shit i said that's way too high, then i scroll a bit more to the right to see the guy with the least amount of points and then i freaked out, i had passed that guy for 500 points (max of 20k). I couldn't believe it, since i thought oh shit, this might be it! I then log in with my details and i saw my name and the uni i passed in, which was the one of my choice. I almost passed out, i jumped and i dropped my phone from excitement. I went out my house screaming fuck yea! All the neighborhood also came out, they knew it was about the exams and they were so happy i finally made it all alone.
Everyone on the town still says congrats to me, even though i have no idea how they learned about it. I had failed twice while studying with extra classes and many many hours per day and this third year i was all alone in my room, i got depressed for 2 weeks almost and actually made it to the university of my choice (it is in the navy btw). So guys, i'm sorry for not replying. Joker and Jocker, i am also really sorry for not replying to Skype, i forgot that damn password. I was logging on the site from coffee shops when i was out. I just had to let this thing out, it was something i will never forget. I learned a lot about life. That depression i had helped me push myself to the limits and go for my goals. It has been an extremely hard and log year so far for me and it finally paid out. Now, i'm am making preparations to move to the town of my university to start the studies. I hope i will back active on the end of September or early October. Again, i'm sorry for not letting you know about it earlier, i was a coward. I feel better about myself now, i actually feel very relieved.
This may sound stupid, but guys, if you set a goal, just go for it, don't hesitate and don't let anyone pull you down.
Thank you for reading, it really means a lot. See ya!