Yeet, im dying...

[swervytapeline]

damn man.. just read it. seems like youre in a hole you needa get outta, which you eventually will as we all have when we are faced with obstacles. good luck and best wishes

[Aqu4]

That's terrible.

 

Only thing i can say is try not to blame yourself. Sometimes people are unreachable.

 

Also stay strong and use this pain as the fuel to your success.

 

If you need to talk to someone my PMs are open.

[ZombieTM115]

Just because she killed herself doesn't mean you should kill yourself too, thats narcisstic and selfish. if you cared so much about the nulled community you wouldn't be contemplating suicide just cause someone who didn't care about you killed herself.

[broodjeshoarma]

Update 1: My mom killed herself yesterday 3/08/2019. I cant do this anymore its just too much.

Update 2: Again, overwhelming support from my Nulled Family. Thank you for all the wishes this has been the most difficult thing I have ever gone through. With the current donations I bought a plane ticket down to my home town to be at the funeral. Thank you all for that! Ive recieved more than I could have ever asked for. I will post another update tomorrow 06/08/2019 with regards to my personal situation. I know its a horrible time for me but through my mom I may be able to live my life stronger than ever.
 

Update 3: I'm using my phone so I apologise, I'm currently sorting out my moms affairs, my mom transferred the rest of her account balance to her boyfriend 2 days before she did it , we believe she had been planning this for a while as this would be counted towards he will which would take 6+ months to get sorted , thank you to everyone who has donated and the Anonymouse donation I received, I've been able to buy tickets to make my moms funeral ehich is a momentous thing all of you have done for me I will post some pictures of the funeral and the pamphlet it makes my heart warm that this is becuase of my Nulled family, we found out today that she had a funeral policy that her boyfriend was paying for,  as well as some of her policies.

To answer everyone I dont wany to start a gofundme, I dont want to expose myself like that, there are people out there that have situations 10x worse than mine,  all the current donations have helped me to see my mom, I saw her today. It was instant, through her jaw. She looked peaceful, i dont blame you for what you did mom i know you were sick. I Love You

 

Update 4: I have been so busy sorting out her affairs and funeral arrangement, that has been my top priority, her boyfriend game me  me some money so at this point my MRI will be paid of soon, with a lot of love, help, and support from my Nulled family. She had life policies which is currently being sorted out , they will be instantly paid, apparently but I haven't received anything, her will seems shady, everything seems shady, her assets have been frozen but I will let all of you know when and what is happening. But enough about all that noise. 

her memorial service was beautiful I wish you could have all been there for my eulogy, that was the hardest thing I've ever done, if anyone wants to see it pm me, maybe you shed a tear maybe you dont.

FINAL UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!

Update 5: Hi There its been a while. The date is 24/08/2019. There are so many of you to thank for your love and support all of you have changed my life, who would have thought a bunch of strangers on a website could have done all of this, it has blown my mind. So my current situation, I went to my neurosurgeon, and this is what he said, because of its position they want to wait for it to grow more due to its tricky positioning, The risk of surgery is too high, I'm a little bit scared at the moment, I will go into emergency surgery if it pushes against my optical nerve (making me blind). Its in an awkward position so we just have to hope and pray that it grows away from my optical nerve (its on the side of my pituitary gland) if it does then its smooth sailing and I can get it removed.
So my Mom. Fuck its been tough I've had so many days where I have just sat in the shower crying, she was my world.

I'm planning to pay everyone back before the end of 2019, so please keep your TXID so i can do that I will be letting everyone know when I can, thank you to everyone for the donations and a very very special to TheN3RoX for helping me with my doctors bills and my MRI which in turn means I've been able to apply for a medical aid, in 3 months I will be able to use it, which means any further doctors bills will be covered!!!!!!!!! You have changed my life, and another very special thanks to the Nulled.to Moderators for helping to expose my thread as well as  Ueli and Rafik911 for exposing my thread and helping it to blow up, you're both amazing people. One more very very special thanks to  Skyline and  Angeldust  for being my rock, for being there at 4 am to listen to me bitch and moan, you two are fucking super stars

Ok, one more very very very special thank you, to every single Nulled user that liked, replied, donated, prayed or even thought of me during this period of time. You're all amazing people. I will always be active on Nulled if you feel like you need to chat or vent, I've been in the dumps and I would love to lend a helping hand its  the least you deserve . PM on Nulled or Suffocate#6498 on Discord, just know someone loves you.

 

 

 

 

Thank you my Nulled Family, I cried today because of all of you, you have all given me hope again

VOUCHED BY ZAIDA




So this is my little story , I've been trying to get onto contact with people that can help me, I just feel so helpless anyway this is most of it, and this is by no means a begging post just wanted to share with anyone that is going through something, I understand how you feel Much Love My Nulled Family


My name is Josh I'm 20 years old, I live in South Africa and I have a brain tumor (pituitary macroadenoma)

I was in rehab recently for bipolar II and major depressive disorder (suspected due to it being on my pituitary gland), I went for a standard MRI which I was initially told would cost me R6 500 ($458) which is quite the knock to my finances but I was okay with it initially, I was warned that if they found something the cost would ramp up dramatically, so a standard 10 minute MRI turned into and 80 minute MRI, not only was I told I have a tumor I was also hit with a bill of R55 000 ($3880)

I'm now in deep debt currently unable to pay for the MRI not only that I cant pay for surgery of which is going to cost me (estimated) R80 000 ($5643) (to cover surgery and recovery) to get it removed, now I obviously cant afford any of this I'm 20 I don't have any medical aid. A little bit about my current state, they 'think' it might be cancerous which is okay if I could afford treatment, I have around 3-6 months before I go completely blind and it starts to push against my brain killing my nerves.


stay strong brudda

 

[Sorano]

https://www.gofundme...upportforjosh20 Hopefully we can help you out

[seggg666]

Update 1: My mom killed herself yesterday 3/08/2019. I cant do this anymore its just too much.

Update 2: Again, overwhelming support from my Nulled Family. Thank you for all the wishes this has been the most difficult thing I have ever gone through. With the current donations I bought a plane ticket down to my home town to be at the funeral. Thank you all for that! Ive recieved more than I could have ever asked for. I will post another update tomorrow 06/08/2019 with regards to my personal situation. I know its a horrible time for me but through my mom I may be able to live my life stronger than ever.
 

Update 3: I'm using my phone so I apologise, I'm currently sorting out my moms affairs, my mom transferred the rest of her account balance to her boyfriend 2 days before she did it , we believe she had been planning this for a while as this would be counted towards he will which would take 6+ months to get sorted , thank you to everyone who has donated and the Anonymouse donation I received, I've been able to buy tickets to make my moms funeral ehich is a momentous thing all of you have done for me I will post some pictures of the funeral and the pamphlet it makes my heart warm that this is becuase of my Nulled family, we found out today that she had a funeral policy that her boyfriend was paying for,  as well as some of her policies.

To answer everyone I dont wany to start a gofundme, I dont want to expose myself like that, there are people out there that have situations 10x worse than mine,  all the current donations have helped me to see my mom, I saw her today. It was instant, through her jaw. She looked peaceful, i dont blame you for what you did mom i know you were sick. I Love You

 

Update 4: I have been so busy sorting out her affairs and funeral arrangement, that has been my top priority, her boyfriend game me  me some money so at this point my MRI will be paid of soon, with a lot of love, help, and support from my Nulled family. She had life policies which is currently being sorted out , they will be instantly paid, apparently but I haven't received anything, her will seems shady, everything seems shady, her assets have been frozen but I will let all of you know when and what is happening. But enough about all that noise. 

her memorial service was beautiful I wish you could have all been there for my eulogy, that was the hardest thing I've ever done, if anyone wants to see it pm me, maybe you shed a tear maybe you dont.

FINAL UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!

Update 5: Hi There its been a while. The date is 24/08/2019. There are so many of you to thank for your love and support all of you have changed my life, who would have thought a bunch of strangers on a website could have done all of this, it has blown my mind. So my current situation, I went to my neurosurgeon, and this is what he said, because of its position they want to wait for it to grow more due to its tricky positioning, The risk of surgery is too high, I'm a little bit scared at the moment, I will go into emergency surgery if it pushes against my optical nerve (making me blind). Its in an awkward position so we just have to hope and pray that it grows away from my optical nerve (its on the side of my pituitary gland) if it does then its smooth sailing and I can get it removed.
So my Mom. Fuck its been tough I've had so many days where I have just sat in the shower crying, she was my world.

I'm planning to pay everyone back before the end of 2019, so please keep your TXID so i can do that I will be letting everyone know when I can, thank you to everyone for the donations and a very very special to TheN3RoX for helping me with my doctors bills and my MRI which in turn means I've been able to apply for a medical aid, in 3 months I will be able to use it, which means any further doctors bills will be covered!!!!!!!!! You have changed my life, and another very special thanks to the Nulled.to Moderators for helping to expose my thread as well as  Ueli and Rafik911 for exposing my thread and helping it to blow up, you're both amazing people. One more very very special thanks to  Skyline and  Angeldust  for being my rock, for being there at 4 am to listen to me bitch and moan, you two are fucking super stars

Ok, one more very very very special thank you, to every single Nulled user that liked, replied, donated, prayed or even thought of me during this period of time. You're all amazing people. I will always be active on Nulled if you feel like you need to chat or vent, I've been in the dumps and I would love to lend a helping hand its  the least you deserve . PM on Nulled or Suffocate#6498 on Discord, just know someone loves you.

 

 

 

 

Thank you my Nulled Family, I cried today because of all of you, you have all given me hope again

VOUCHED BY ZAIDA




So this is my little story , I've been trying to get onto contact with people that can help me, I just feel so helpless anyway this is most of it, and this is by no means a begging post just wanted to share with anyone that is going through something, I understand how you feel Much Love My Nulled Family


My name is Josh I'm 20 years old, I live in South Africa and I have a brain tumor (pituitary macroadenoma)

I was in rehab recently for bipolar II and major depressive disorder (suspected due to it being on my pituitary gland), I went for a standard MRI which I was initially told would cost me R6 500 ($458) which is quite the knock to my finances but I was okay with it initially, I was warned that if they found something the cost would ramp up dramatically, so a standard 10 minute MRI turned into and 80 minute MRI, not only was I told I have a tumor I was also hit with a bill of R55 000 ($3880)

I'm now in deep debt currently unable to pay for the MRI not only that I cant pay for surgery of which is going to cost me (estimated) R80 000 ($5643) (to cover surgery and recovery) to get it removed, now I obviously cant afford any of this I'm 20 I don't have any medical aid. A little bit about my current state, they 'think' it might be cancerous which is okay if I could afford treatment, I have around 3-6 months before I go completely blind and it starts to push against my brain killing my nerves.




 

My god..

[BadFella]

Hang in there mate. 

Don't let anger and stress take over.

 

May your mother's soul rest in peace!

[scoopydo97]

very sorry

 

Update 1: My mom killed herself yesterday 3/08/2019. I cant do this anymore its just too much.

Update 2: Again, overwhelming support from my Nulled Family. Thank you for all the wishes this has been the most difficult thing I have ever gone through. With the current donations I bought a plane ticket down to my home town to be at the funeral. Thank you all for that! Ive recieved more than I could have ever asked for. I will post another update tomorrow 06/08/2019 with regards to my personal situation. I know its a horrible time for me but through my mom I may be able to live my life stronger than ever.
 

Update 3: I'm using my phone so I apologise, I'm currently sorting out my moms affairs, my mom transferred the rest of her account balance to her boyfriend 2 days before she did it , we believe she had been planning this for a while as this would be counted towards he will which would take 6+ months to get sorted , thank you to everyone who has donated and the Anonymouse donation I received, I've been able to buy tickets to make my moms funeral ehich is a momentous thing all of you have done for me I will post some pictures of the funeral and the pamphlet it makes my heart warm that this is becuase of my Nulled family, we found out today that she had a funeral policy that her boyfriend was paying for,  as well as some of her policies.

To answer everyone I dont wany to start a gofundme, I dont want to expose myself like that, there are people out there that have situations 10x worse than mine,  all the current donations have helped me to see my mom, I saw her today. It was instant, through her jaw. She looked peaceful, i dont blame you for what you did mom i know you were sick. I Love You

 

Update 4: I have been so busy sorting out her affairs and funeral arrangement, that has been my top priority, her boyfriend game me  me some money so at this point my MRI will be paid of soon, with a lot of love, help, and support from my Nulled family. She had life policies which is currently being sorted out , they will be instantly paid, apparently but I haven't received anything, her will seems shady, everything seems shady, her assets have been frozen but I will let all of you know when and what is happening. But enough about all that noise. 

her memorial service was beautiful I wish you could have all been there for my eulogy, that was the hardest thing I've ever done, if anyone wants to see it pm me, maybe you shed a tear maybe you dont.

FINAL UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!

Update 5: Hi There its been a while. The date is 24/08/2019. There are so many of you to thank for your love and support all of you have changed my life, who would have thought a bunch of strangers on a website could have done all of this, it has blown my mind. So my current situation, I went to my neurosurgeon, and this is what he said, because of its position they want to wait for it to grow more due to its tricky positioning, The risk of surgery is too high, I'm a little bit scared at the moment, I will go into emergency surgery if it pushes against my optical nerve (making me blind). Its in an awkward position so we just have to hope and pray that it grows away from my optical nerve (its on the side of my pituitary gland) if it does then its smooth sailing and I can get it removed.
So my Mom. Fuck its been tough I've had so many days where I have just sat in the shower crying, she was my world.

I'm planning to pay everyone back before the end of 2019, so please keep your TXID so i can do that I will be letting everyone know when I can, thank you to everyone for the donations and a very very special to TheN3RoX for helping me with my doctors bills and my MRI which in turn means I've been able to apply for a medical aid, in 3 months I will be able to use it, which means any further doctors bills will be covered!!!!!!!!! You have changed my life, and another very special thanks to the Nulled.to Moderators for helping to expose my thread as well as  Ueli and Rafik911 for exposing my thread and helping it to blow up, you're both amazing people. One more very very special thanks to  Skyline and  Angeldust  for being my rock, for being there at 4 am to listen to me bitch and moan, you two are fucking super stars

Ok, one more very very very special thank you, to every single Nulled user that liked, replied, donated, prayed or even thought of me during this period of time. You're all amazing people. I will always be active on Nulled if you feel like you need to chat or vent, I've been in the dumps and I would love to lend a helping hand its  the least you deserve . PM on Nulled or Suffocate#6498 on Discord, just know someone loves you.

 

 

 

 

Thank you my Nulled Family, I cried today because of all of you, you have all given me hope again

VOUCHED BY ZAIDA




So this is my little story , I've been trying to get onto contact with people that can help me, I just feel so helpless anyway this is most of it, and this is by no means a begging post just wanted to share with anyone that is going through something, I understand how you feel Much Love My Nulled Family


My name is Josh I'm 20 years old, I live in South Africa and I have a brain tumor (pituitary macroadenoma)

I was in rehab recently for bipolar II and major depressive disorder (suspected due to it being on my pituitary gland), I went for a standard MRI which I was initially told would cost me R6 500 ($458) which is quite the knock to my finances but I was okay with it initially, I was warned that if they found something the cost would ramp up dramatically, so a standard 10 minute MRI turned into and 80 minute MRI, not only was I told I have a tumor I was also hit with a bill of R55 000 ($3880)

I'm now in deep debt currently unable to pay for the MRI not only that I cant pay for surgery of which is going to cost me (estimated) R80 000 ($5643) (to cover surgery and recovery) to get it removed, now I obviously cant afford any of this I'm 20 I don't have any medical aid. A little bit about my current state, they 'think' it might be cancerous which is okay if I could afford treatment, I have around 3-6 months before I go completely blind and it starts to push against my brain killing my nerves.




 

very sorry for her

[butwal99]

my big sympathies for op and i will try to arrange or do something for you. You can start fund raising or go to some country where treatment is cheaper.

[Ulius]

Jesus christ, im really sorry man.